I know when I have to do something that I don't want to do.
It's this feeling in my gut. Chaos ensues in my brain. Then I start overthinking. Try to rationalize it away.
After which I drive my wife insane. Topped off with fear and anxiety.
That's when I know I have to do something. Those are my telltale signs.
The reason these reactions happen is because I'm ripping through the old parts of myself. And those old parts like being in control. They don't like becoming useless.
The mind has an amazing way of diverting attention from these growing pains/fears.
As I said above, thinking, rationalizing, strategizing. Creation of a little drama. Or some other "emergency" to deal with.
But at the end of the day, the growth will come. One way or another.
I've learned the hard way, many, many, many times, nip it in the bud and do it when you have some control over it early on. Because if we don't, needless destruction will follow.
Rip the bandaid off. Face the fear. Go into the scary and own it on your terms.
And repeat one thousand more times.